Unsettled

I'm unsettled. Not in a Whoa-that-really-bothers-me way. More in a I-need-to-do-something-but-I-have-no-idea-what kinda way. You might call it a spiritual version of spring fever. I feel like I've been cooped-up spiritually for so long now that I'm dying to get out and so something. It's a very real physical sensation and it's driving me kinda mad. My mind keeps racing to try and find something to focus on, but it won't slow down long enough to get anything actually done.

Mixed around in there are the following:

• A need to preach. I've got this message of fear, believing God and living in Him that is just busting to get out. I just can't get a handle on it long enough to get anything down. You've seen bits of it here, but in my spirit it's so much bigger.
• My pastor and I once tossed around the idea of a young adults service at our church. After hearing that our worship leader was leaving, I had dismissed the idea. Now it's back in my mind. My guess says that's related to the item above.
• A friend has registered a really cool URL which has some great potential as a ministry serving small churches. I keep thinking about that. We're meeting Friday just to have fun discussing the idea. I don't expect anything to come from it long-term but God can always do huge things.
• I myself continue to try and grow in my maturity, self-control and better habits. Jesus is here with me so that is huge.
• Our church hasn't had a men's retreat in some time and I'd like to see one again. I'm thinking that having a military chaplain come out and talk could be really encouraging, but I have no clue where to start with that one. My neighbor is Navy Reserve. He might be a starting point.
• I have family members who I think I need to write to. One was a letter asking forgiveness for my past attitudes and that I did write. That went well. Two more are letters to challenge them spiritually. Those are harder, but I need to be obedient.

I'm telling you, it's hard to get it all straight. LORD, organize my mind. If only in small bursts. Give me clarity to know what is of you and what is not.

Two small points. First is that the first point up there could be one person's entire ministry. Maybe that's what I'm feeling?

Second, I had our church Elders pray for me a couple Sundays ago and one said that he felt I should just 'slow down.' "Wait" seems to be God's word for me almost every time. I admit that I'm impatient and want to go! But I'll be obedient. I just feel like a dog, trained to sit and wait for the master's order to go get the treat he just threw.