Don't Quit Your Day Job.

My full-time job may be coming to an end. My boss told me very plainly that I had 30 days to get my numbers up. As he put it, 'my future here looks bleak.'

Now the idea of being without a full-time job scares me to death. I am our primary bread winner. Going on just my wife's salary would be near impossible for us right now. However, I'm not that bothered by not working here anymore. As I've said, my heart is just not here. So I do try and work hard, but it just doesn't excite me.

So now I'm full of questions. Is it possible that God is closing the door here? Could there be a greater work He is preparing? Do I need to just live on faith that God will provide what we need?

The sermon this weekend was on Abraham, in that he had to 'Go' then God would 'Show.' That rang with both Amanda and I. Is it time to leave this job on faith and let God show me what His plans are?

My fear is that might just be my own desires and not God's.

How can you tell?

Update - October 2008

As I said in my last post, I've had a severe case of writers block recently. Things are getting fast and furious in my life right now. Now while you'd think that would make for a lot of material, it actually makes me more private. Unlike these teenagers on Facebook who post their most intimate thoughts for all to read.

I will share some of the highlights though.

1. Worst news. I may be losing my job soon. I've been very unhappy here for quite some time and it's catching up with me. My boss and I have never gotten along and he's not happy with my work. I'm trying but it's not easy. I know God will provide and I'm learning to trust Him more through this.
2. Interesting news. Sounds like the church has approved a very part time staff position for me. It would be a Pastoral Internship to go along with my going to school. I'll learn more details in the next couple weeks.
3. Best news. Amanda and I just celebrated six years of marriage. She surprised me every day. She's been so supportive with my job. It's hard to imagine life without her.

There's more, obviously, but I'll save that for future posts (Yes, they'll be more.) There's just so much going on, I can't help but think it must all fit together somehow. God is using this to teach me to trust Him more and live truly by faith.